Today an ugly truth reared its head. For several years now I’ve known what I wanted for my life and I have been working on bringing it all about. It has been an interesting journey and at times quite painful. However, through it all I have remained faithful to my purpose. There was one thing I was not recognizing in all of this and that was the underlying fear. Which is the title of this poem.
The Underlying Fear
What is it I’m avoiding when the phone rings?
Who is it I’m afraid is on the line?
What are all those unopened envelopes
With the name on that is mine?
Are those things I’m avoiding so terrible?
Is the past just catching up on me?
If I were to inherit a fortune
Would I suddenly feel free?
Whenever I think or dream about the future
There is so much that gets in my way
A mountain of obstacles mounting
Getting bigger and bigger each day
I so want to conquer this mountain
I feel that the end’s coming near
But there’s one huge thing in my way
It’s the underlying fear
Yes! Fear of being successful
And actually making my mark
So what could possibly be so bad
Do I want to remain in the dark?
Well doesn’t this sound preposterous?
Isn’t this the silliest thing?
As I let go the underlying fear
My heart is beginning to sing
It’s a song of new understanding
Understanding I can have it all
I can now conquer the mountain
That mountain that caused me to fall
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